People always say that when the phone rings in the middle of the night you know it’s going to be bad news. But the funny thing is, when I was woken up by the sound of my mobile, the first thing I thought was that a friend was out drinking and wanted to know if I was in town – either that or they wanted to share a drunken ‘I love you’ experience. God knows I’ve put my friends through enough of those myself.
‘You know what,’ I’ll slur to whoever I’m with at the end of a night out, ‘I think you’re brilliant. I really really love you.’
But I shake the words out of my head. No, this time it isn’t that. It isn’t that at all. Although right now I wish more than anything else that it was.
I stand up and pull on my dressing gown. If I quickly pack my things and leave London now I can be back in Bolton by the start of the day.
I pad into the kitchen and fill the kettle. As I take out a mug and drop in a teaspoon of instant coffee, I suddenly feel a twist of frustration. It’s been months and months since I was last home; there are so many unhappy memories there and so many relationships I’m finding it difficult to deal with. But yesterday, as if from nowhere, I finally found myself wanting to go back. I suddenly felt homesick and wanted to reconnect with my family. I wanted see the very people I’ve been running away from.
Then this happened, one of the things I’ve been dreading most for my whole life. And now I’m being called home for a completely different reason, a reason that makes me feel sick with fear – fear that, after all this time staying away, I might just have left it too late to go back.
'Don't tell me to stop,' sang Madonna. So I took a leaf out of her book and ignored all those publishers who said my book was too gay or just wouldn't sell. And now, thanks to all you guys, it's over 80% crowdfunded and on course to be Unbound's fastest-funded novel ever! So thanks so much and if there's anything you can do to give us that one last push - maybe telling friends or helping spread the…
Hi everyone, I'm so happy to report we're now halfway towards our funding target after a little over two days! Thanks so much once again for your support - and if you can bear to keep talking about the book and sharing the news and telling your friends, that would be so brilliant as we still have a long way to go! But people have started to report on us in the news. Check out this piece in today's…
Hi everyone. We've got off to a cracking start! After just 24hours we're already a third funded, which is the fastest start ever for a novel on Unbound. So thanks so much for supporting the project and making my dream come true. If you can bear to keep sharing the link on social media or keep telling your friends it'll hopefully get us to two-thirds funded by the end of today. And the message about…
These people are helping to fund The Madonna of Bolton.