Sleeplessness, drastic mood swings, headaches - a possible cause

Friday, 13 September 2019

Spebel ed

For most of six years, my son and I woke three times a night.  Melatonin was the only way of getting four hours sleep at any one time.  Then came a discovery:


'I don't know what came over me,' says Mum.  'Everything seemed so black – like being down a dark well.  Oh - '

She puts her hand to her head.

'I must sit down, I feel all dizzy.'

'Again?' says Lucy.  'You've been dizzy…

Laughing at the Flood

Monday, 26 August 2019

Huw at 5

Huw's love of water knew no bounds.....

What was that?  A very loud CRASH!!  Now, there is a waterfall in the house.  Huw can hear it rushing and rushing.  Oh, it's stopped.  Huw can hear Dad.  Now he shouts,

'Oh, MY GOD!'  

Mum, Dad and Lucy all say that a lot.  Huw stays in his room.  He can't hear the waterfall any more.  Then he hears Lucy scream.  Now she is laughing, like when…

How it Felt at the Time

Saturday, 27 July 2019

Red abstract


I don’t often give in-depth interpretations of my paintings (which are really mixed media works), but I’ve recently been looking at this one and thinking ‘Yes, this is a true picture of how it felt at the time’.


The two figures to the left – who look like a king and queen – are puppets and made of wood.  They are from an old Stella Artois beermat I found in a framed montage in a junk…

Going Gluten Free transformed Huw's life

Thursday, 27 June 2019

Huw at 6

'I wondered if he would like a bit of cake,' says Rosy. 'I made one gluten free with the marge you listed as OK.'

'How lovely of you,' says Mum. 'Huw – Rosy has made you a cake.'

Huw likes cake.  Huw loves cake.  He goes into the kitchen.

'It's alright you can stay in the sitting room and I'll bring you the cake,' says Rosy.

Huw is opening all the cupboards in the kitchen.  Huw finds some…


Sunday, 26 May 2019

Huw at age 4   age 10 with rhiannon

One of the great mysteries to us as a family, was why Huw occasionally found the theme tune from Postman Pat so utterly terrifying.  Those of you who have pledged to buy 'Your Life as I Knew it' can find out why now, (as you probably would turn to the notes immediately, if the whole book was in front of you).  Those of you who haven't yet pledged, please do so - or share with someone who you know…

All Vegans and Vegetarians please take note

Wednesday, 15 May 2019

Collage by huw 2017

Collage made by Huw in 2017.  Huw's visual sensitivities, mentioned in my last post, have produced some lovely abstracts over the years.  As for my belief that he was born with autistic traits, here is an extract from my notes on the text of 'Your Life as I Knew it'.  If you google the effects of B12 deficiency and how it affects our ability to excrete toxins, you may begin to see why the causes…

Early Signs of Severe Autism

Thursday, 2 May 2019

Autism notes

This is an extract from a sketchbook where I noted some of Huw's early symptoms.  It was meant as a guide for parents, and in the first 'window' I was careful to add the proviso that behaviours which are shortlived, and don't appear all at the same time, are likely to be due to other problems.  When did it all begin? is a question parents still ask - amid continuing fears and furore over vaccinations…

Differently-sized Feet

Monday, 22 April 2019

Elvis sleeve

Some of us who aren't autistic have slightly differently sized feet, but for those who are autistic, the size-difference may be considerable.  This may not be noticeable when they are a child, but as they enter teenagehood, it's worth bearing in mind, especially if normal procedures for buying shoes are out of the question.  My son developed a fear of shoe shops, which meant that measuring his feet…

Epilepsy and Autism

Monday, 1 April 2019

Huw's magic pic

One of many pictures Huw made using his beloved Sesame Street Art Workshop - were these multiple images the result of the absences he was experiencing (every seven minutes, at the age of twelve)?

There were signs, looking back, but we (all the experts as well as myself) didn't make the connection.  It was too easy to assume that they were the signs of autism: absences manifest as a disengagement…

Newly changed after his fall in a river, Huw is tempted by more water....

Sunday, 10 March 2019

Ioan at school age 6

'Stop, Huw! Oh, Nohhhh. Stop him!' Mum yells.

Huw is running round the fountain. The edge of the fountain is not very high. He can step up on it to jump in, but he is running round and round the fountain and it is hard to turn and jump.

'You go one way, I'll go the other,' shouts Lucy.

Then Mum and Lucy go different ways and they are both coming at Huw from each side and - Oh, no! They…


Friday, 22 February 2019

Spring picnic

Most of 'Your Life as I Knew it' is about when Huw was at home with us, but at the back of the book I have written notes which fill in some of the gaps.  There is quite a lot about my attempts to modify Huw's problems through diet, and there are also other sections, which might be helpful to anyone struggling with daily pressures similar to the ones we faced.  After Huw left home, I continued to make…


Thursday, 7 February 2019

Racing pulse

Like many marriages in families with an autistic child, mine came to an end - when Huw was six years old and Lucy was eleven. For three years or so afterwards, I was too busy to think beyond the odd crush, so it was a nice surprise when a meeting at a fancy dress 'do' ended in what I hoped would be a long term relationship. Simultaneously, flirtations with an American artist were becoming more serious…

Time and Space for Lucy

Wednesday, 30 January 2019

Lucy's day off by mum

Siblings of children with severe autism need some space to call their own, and some time alone with one or other of their parents, too. (Rhiannon) Lucy was no exception and here she is on a much-needed day off from school, captured by me in my favourite medium and style.  Beneath is an extract from 'Your Life as I Knew it' which gives one example of why she needed a break sometimes.  My gratitude…

(A bit) more Sleep!

Wednesday, 23 January 2019

Melatonin image


Not long after Huw's brain scan, which was normal, there was a somewhat hectic appointment with the hospital consultant. The wait had been longer than expected and I'd made the mistake of giving Huw an outsized flapjack from the hospital cafe to eat. This had the effect of catapulting him into manic activity, even before he had finished eating it. We entered…

Huw wants to talk

Monday, 14 January 2019

Huw at school

Welcome to all of you who have recently supported my book, 'Your Life as I Knew it', about family life with Huw, and also to all of you who joined us earlier, and those who may be joining us shortly.  Thank you for helping with a publication very dear to my heart and which I believe ought to be available to everyone.  Near the beginning of the book, I have a strong altercation with a Speech Therapist…

Where we lived in Wales

Monday, 17 December 2018

View in winter


There are many snowy scenes in 'Your Life as I Knew it' so I thought a view from one of our windows would be appropriate for this time of year.  Many thanks to those of you who have backed the book so far.  Please spread the word - it's a good read, and hopefully a real insight into life with someone growing up with fairly severe autism.  Huw is such a character and it has been a privilege…

Huw's Dressing-up Phase

Friday, 16 November 2018

Slideshow 5


As you will find in 'Your Life as I Knew it', Huw's relationship with clothes could be described as experimental.  Here he is wearing one of my dresses.  Other favourites were his sister's giant monster slippers, which he wanted to wear to school. Shoes and shoe-shopping involved high drama at times and we only found out one of the possible reasons recently.  It's all in the book, so please…

First weekly update

Thursday, 8 November 2018

The still small voice

Hello and thank you to all of you who have already committed to buying my book.  I hope you like this image, which I made when I was doing a project on autism for my art degree.  This gicle print is on textured paper and it combines a photo of Huw at his favourite lake, atmospheric artwork from me, and a poem entitled 'The Still Small Voice', which I wrote at the time.  Although it's quite a sad poem…

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