Ideal Angels is a book about life. It’s about love, loss, and disconnection. One day you’re sitting at your desk, wondering where your life is going, and the next you’re on a rollercoaster, being pushed and pulled in directions you never thought possible, and loving every second of it.
The story of one man, one woman, and one week. Man meets woman, they fall in love. We follow them through a whirlwind week in which the man goes from nobody to everybody. Sex, drugs, something like rock and roll, the man spent so long hiding from the world in which now he is a central part.
It’s not all joy – the world is full of fear, pressure, expectation, it’s enough to drive anyone crazy. Particularly if you’ve spent your life on a knife edge. There are so many things you’re expected to do, so many ways you’re expected to fit in, no matter how much you don’t want to. You’ve tried to make your bed, and lie in it, but that’s no longer an option. You must become everything you hate, in order to survive.
What if you got everything you’d ever wanted? And what if it was taken from you? Written in the second person narrative, Ideal Angels is a book about you. A book about me. A book about everyone.
Tumescent, tumescence, a rush of blood but not to the head. The anger gives way to resignation, betrayal turns in to hopelessness. Despair is everywhere.
Your world is different from mine. Your forever stretches from first matter to last. Mine is the blink of an eye. There was darkness before, and that darkness will come again. You can’t control it, you can’t swim. There is only sinking. You can try and hedge your bets, you can plan for what is coming, but you cannot stop it coming. From the top of the highest height, you feel like you can see everything, but you cannot. You are blind. But the blindness is not the darkness, because the darkness is not black. It is so much more. It is like your eyes are inside out, and everything you see is inverted in a way your brain cannot comprehend. It threatens to tear you apart. You know you will eventually be torn apart, but you do not know how. Not yet. You will not know until it happens, and by then it will already be too late. It will not be a she, nor a him, but it will be a you. You will tear yourself apart searching for a meaning which does not exist. You will kick and scream and scratch and cry and bleed and it will all be for naught. It has already been done. Everything that ever is, ever has been, or ever will be, is already done. You cannot stop it. You cannot control it. You can only accept it. You know you will not be able to, but you can try. You can pretend. You can fake. You are a fake. Your whole life has been a fake. Everything is nothing. But this is ok. This is not necessarily a bad thing. You are…
In that darkness there is a light, and in this light there is a promise. The promise is her name, the promise is that maybe everything will be ok. But you know it can never be, the promise is a lie, so you stop thinking, you stop feeling, the light goes out and you continue.
25% - gone
33% - a flickering light in the distance
37% - the current location
50% - creeping up on us...
And when it hits, something big is going to happen.
Once I hit 50%, something huge is going to take place.
Do you want to be a part of it? Hit the pledge button and you can be.
Watch this space...
Apologies it's taken so long, the life of a writer is a hectic one. I've finally completed the draw, and the winners are;
1st place - Troy Verdeer
2nd place - Paul Armourdedieu
3rd place - Hannah Jennings
Congratulations to the 3 of you! To claim your prize, email me at email@example.com to give me your details!
Commiserations to all who didn't win. But don't despair…
Thank you all - and you know what that means don't you? Competition time!
This weekend, you'll be entered in to a draw. 1st place wins my top 5 all time books. 2nd place wins my top 3. and 3rd place wins my top 1 favourite all time book.
I'll be doing the draw this weekend, so there's still time to get more entries. Remember, £1 = 1 entry, so between now and this weekend you can pledge more…
I'm 1/4 of the way there - I couldn't do it without you guys, you're fantastic! This is such a huge milestone, and I'm so incredibly overwhelmed by the support I've received.
But I'm far from over. With 25% being down, that still leaves 75% remaining. So there's no room to take my foot off the pedal.
Remember, the competition is still scheduled in for once I reach 50 supporters - and i'm at…
Do you want some free stuff? Of course you do! Who doesn't!?
As I approach 50 backers - 39 so far, thank you to all you generous people! - I think it's time to give some stuff out. So once I reach 50 backers, I'm going to do a prize draw.
The winner will get copies of my top 5 all time favourite books - you can see what I love to read, and what inspires me.
Runner up will…
Between now and the end of May, if you use the code MayDay when you pledge, you'll receive 15% off your total.
As well as the discount, you'll receive 2 completely free e-books the next day.
The offer ends on 31st May, which is next Wednesday, so don't miss out!
My account dashboard tells me I'm 28 days in - as near a month as matters. That's 4 weeks since Ideal Angels went live. What a ride it's been so far.
It's been so much fun - but I'd be lying if i said it was all fun. It's not all pledges, kind words, support, joy and praise. For every pledge, there's a visit with no success. For every kind word, there's 5 people who just aren't interested.…
Well, that's the first week over with. It's been terrifying, nerve wracking, altogether a fun experience! I was genuinely scared I'd end the week with 0 backers, so to have 10 and be at 6% is fantastic. Thank you so much to all who have pledged!
I've had a look at the pledge structure, and decided on a bit of a change. To start at £10 is a bit steep - it's a lot of money to ask people to pledge…
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